My Feminist Life in GIFS: The only Black girl in class

1.)

When returning back from my summer vacation and visiting my neighbor, and I’m like:

But then he stops me before I leave and says, “so what do you think about the whole Trayvon Martin thing?” And I’m like:

2.)

Roomate: OMGSH! I have a video to show you! I think you might really like it!

Me: Is it about Black people?

Roommate: haha, yeah

3.)

Friend: Can you swim?

Me: Yeah

Friend: Okay, cool. I wasn’t asking because your Black…

(In all fairness she really wasn’t)

4.)

Coworker: Check out this link, I think you’ll like it!

Me: Is it about Black people?

Coworker: Yes

Me: Did you send it to me because I’m Black?

Coworker:     🙂

5.)

Me: So I’m considering going to Jamaica for the summer.

Advisor: Oh, where are you from in Jamaica?

Me: I’m from Arkansas.

Advisor: Oh. You don’t even look like you’re Jamaican. Ya know, we recently had a student go to South Africa.

6.)

When my professor of 2 years repeatedly calls me Lakeeda, even though that’s actually not my name.

7.)

Different Friend: Have you seen the new Lily Allen video?

Different friend: What do you think about it?

9.)

When people in my World Literature class do an interpretive performance of Lysistrata. They play single mothers who are a part of the Bloods and the Crips, and complain about no good baby daddies whilst speaking jive and Ebonics.

Did I mention I’m the only Black person in that class?

10.)

How I feel every.single.day.

But through it all I persevere because…

Obviously.

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One Response to “My Feminist Life in GIFS: The only Black girl in class”
  1. Kasey says:

    It pains me deeply that you feel isolated,alienated, and alone. I’m increasingly becoming frustrated with our culture that propagates and sustains hierarchal power systems that exclude and oppress all non Eurocentric masculine identities and thought. It has created unequal divisions among all people via categories of race, sexuality, and gender and fails to recognize and embrace diversity and pluralities of thought. It has also denigrated and ignored women of color more than anyone else. I’m pissed that stereotypes of women of color still persist because these stereotypes are a direct result colonization and slavery. Slaveholders created the images and myths of hypersexualized black female bodies to justify their enslavement and rape of women of color. This commodification of bodies still exist in the ways we continually objectify their bodies through images of them as either silent, animalistic, or eroticized. I’m also troubled by the exclusion of black and third world women’s thought in academia and almost all intellectual discourse. I cannot explain the depths and wealth of knowledge I have gained by reading Audre Lorde, Gloria Anzaldua, Pat Parker, Patricia Hill Collins, the women of the Combahee River Collective, and the multitude of various writings by Women of Color. These writers have enabled me to break down and see through dichotomous thought systems that divide us based on race and gender. I have recognized that although the lived bodily experience of race and gender permeate our lives, their is a deeper understanding of one another when learn that these falsely imposed categories do not define who we are. By reading and accepting a hybridization of thought from various cultures and women we can subvert the colonized systems of knowledge that have enslaved and imprisoned us all. Until I read Audre Lorde, I had always felt ashamed of and devalued my ability to connect emotion and thought. I always silenced myself in the prescense of men for fear of being views as irrational and crazy. I finally started loving myself Lorde taught me to reclaim and embrace my previously denigrates qualities as a woman. I began to heal and become whole. Lastly, I have now learned to view all canonized western discourse through a lens of scepticism. Most western scholars are deeply racist and sexist. Marx believed in colonization in order for him to “rescue Africans from their savage thought”. Foucault trivialized rape and ignored women of color when they challenged him. Columbus and Cortez raped African and indigenous bodies. Heidegger was a Nazi. Almost all white feminist ignored pleas from women of color to help them fight racism. I could go on forever listing the amount of Scholars that are racist and sexist, but that’s for another topic. Anytime I challenge the thought of these canonized thinkers, I am consistently ignored or met with disdain by other white people. I’m ashamed at white feminist and white male liberals refusal to acknowledge that they often hold and propagate biased, racist thought. However, I also secretly laugh at them because until they learn to broaden their horizons by reading and including black, Latina, asian, and female thought, they will never experience the ecstasy and unbridled joy that can be achieved when increasing our modes of concsciouness by transgressing race, gender, and sexuality.

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